Fair Weekend August

Since I am back dating these are not going to be in order. This post is in response to my Stuck in a Rutt. The following weekend in August I planned a Wyoming Get-a-way to see if it would help me to cheer up some and move on after skyler passed away in July. My parents were going up and I invited my friend Candi to go up as well. (I believe I carpooled with my parents but I could be mistaking another time.) I knew it was the fair weekend so I stole my two cousins Allison and Morgan along with Candi and we went and played on the fair rides one night. (I got waaay sick on one and threw up after... I couldnt go on any more that night I was sooo queezy.) The weekend was mixed between fair back and forth for different events such as rodeo and Hypnotist, fair rides, four wheeling, visiting Rachels grave, family visits both on my Nelson and my Helm side, and a night at the Cowboy Bar with my parents and moms friends. Got to see Dessa was was my moms friend forever ago that I grew up with.

It was the best weekend that I seriously needed. It couldnt have been better. When I went to visit my aunt Kathy and Uncle Bill I also go to see my favorite cousin Billly June and her family since they were visiting. One special moment for me was a small one but meant the world. While visiting with them Aunt Kathy mentioned how much she would love to see my mom and care about her. When I got to meet up with them for a min at the fair that night I was able to have my mom come with me to say hi. It was teh best feeling in the world and I almost cried.

Well enough talk here are the pictures (Mixed up of course)

Updates to close 2011

Just a heads up- I have about 28 posts coming that I will be working on starting today. They will be up long enough for me to order my book for the year... Then will be starting over for 2012... My way of trying very hard to move forward in a new year. Some of the posts to come are very personal so I apologize I dont know how to block certain posts...

Sigh

I have soo much to update before so I can print off my blog for my book. I am having a hard time getting motivated to update the past events. Especially after the latest. I feel like with my mood all I am going to end up posting is negative or depressing. Its been quite a year and I am trying my hardest to get through these last few weeks of 2011. I have little motivation for anything including work. (And my Job is my second most important thing to me) Its hard to be motivated with the second most important thing to me when I feel like I am losing my first: Family/Friends.

Everyone keeps saying how strong I am and how I can get through it. But I dont feel strong, I feel numb. I feel like I am putting on a show trying to be normal around everyone else and at work and then I go home back to my room and pup feeling like I cant breath again. I may be getting through it but I dont feel like I can ever be me again, and that scares me. Apart of me misses it and wants it back but at the same time I dont feel like I care any more. Or I dont want to care any more it hurts too much. I have another very very difficult post to write and this one is going to be the hardest yet. I am hoping to have it by the end of the week. Maybe ill do it on the one month mark for the 17th. Who knows.

Anyways Ill be fine I always am, all it takes is time right? Well watch for the next updates, I will try my hardest to keep all but the dreaded one as upbeat as possible. :)

Jade Louise Designs: Roses for Rachel, a Story of Remembrance, a Tribut...

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Horrible couple of days...

So..... My tummy is definatly not feeling very well and not because I am physically sick. I have the biggest anxiety at the moment. I had worked so hard to earn extra income from work to pay off the one bill that I have in collections. I had earned $850 from a work promo which I was waiting to be sent so I could pay off bills. Well I got the card.... waited for another bill to come out so I could make sure I had enough for everything else....went to pay the bill and now the card is no where to be found. I have detailed cleaned my room and cleaned out my car and purse trying to find it. The last place I used the card does not have it and it is not at work. I have just lost over $700 and now need to figure out how to come up with that much quick. :( Needless to say I will be trying to sell a few items, take a few back if they will be accepted, trip canceled to see my family in Logan, and I will be eating very cheap the next month or so. (Heres to hoping it helps with the weight as well...)

Freaking A!!

Our Little Sam

Our little Sam is such a trooper! I dont know how Angie and Brett keep it up. Sam ended up in the hospital last night/this very early morning around 1:00 am. Hes been in before for big asthma attacks but this time he now has pneumonia. I was able to do a lunch date and take Angie some yummy lunch and hang out for a bit. Heres to hoping he gets better quick and can go home soon with no issues. (I stole the picture from my Aunt Angie) I think they should be good with hospitals now... To much!

Best thing to feel better

Hanging out with my Aunt Angie, Uncle Brett, Sam, James, and Gabe is the best with making me feel better and a little brighter.